My beloved Nek Besar
My grandma passed away today, my japanese grandma. Yes, she's one of the reason I don't look like malay much. Mixed emotion now, sad + sorrow + desolate + dumbfounded + despair. One of my loved ones is now not with me anymore in this world ...
She passed away peacefully around 11++ AM, I got the news around 12 when I was in the office. Rushed back to home, watery eyes in LRT but I just couldn't give a damn to those people who were looking at me. Then, around 2PM depart from KL and by 4:45PM I was at Larkin, my late grandma's home. Most of the relatives were there.
The body was already in 'kafan'. I was so blurred at that time, I didn't even meet my mom first. After the prayer, met my mom and she hugged me so tight and wouldn't let me go. I knew she's so sad coz she's sobbing in my arms. That was the time my floodgates were opened and the tears flowed like broken dam.
When my other grandma arrived (she took off from KL a little bit late than me), we; the family gave our last respect to our beloved grandma. And the tears just keep flowing, can't helped it. On the journey to the burial ground, although I keep talking to my bro-in-law, my eyes still flowed with tears.
During 'talkin', the tears still did not stop. I think, I stopped crying when it was the time to leave the cemetary. Whatever it is, I was grateful I could see her for the last time. To give my last goodbye to my beloved grandma.
I just kept remembering the memories, and how much I loved her. When I was small, she used to sing lullabye in japanese when putting me to sleep in the cradle. How I annoyed her when she nagged me about getting back home late in the nite. How I brought her back and forth from JB to KL. How we; cousins, used to joke with her. How lovely she looked when all dressed up on Hari Raya. But those are the precious memories that will live on forever in my mind ... to keep remembering her.
Nek, I pray to Allah may your soul rest in peace, ditempatkan di sisi orang2 yg beriman, dilapangkan kubur dan dicucuri rahmat selalu. I'm gonna miss you so much, love you and will always remember you. Amin
I better stop now coz me eyes are getting watery again ... don't want me eyes to get more swollen.
posted by isman @ 11:22 PM
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